Today meet up with my dear after service... She is still worried abt our relationship... Both of us wept again... I really love her no matter who she is but she just feel tt I'm too good for her... I think tt if u feel the other party is too good to u, it will means tt u urself are good to the other party too... This is mutual behaviour... I was kinda worried n sad for her cuz I really love her deeply which on one can can eva change tt n replace her... I was so stunned at the reaction she gave me when i meet her tt I also start crying again... After tt she asked me to go home myself n give her time to think abt our relationship... So in the end I ended up in marina Bay alone wtching the fireworks...
At abt 3-4 pm, I reach Marina Bay, I choose a nice place to sit, somewhere near the sea... As u know I love the sea as it is able to calm me down... I stare aimlessly at the into the sea n recall all the help I used to give to my fren n see if it can be applied to my case... Later i started singing to myself n tears just well up n I was crying... I dun know y but I kept thinking abt her, so afraid to lose her... I cried for hours when my one of my friends decide to drop by to comfort me which I dun really want cuz it end up in vain n wun help much... I just prefer to sort thing out myself... U all know tt I am very stubborn when it comes to deal thing on my own... Once I made a decision in my heart, no one can change it unless u have a valid reason n gd statements to stop me from doing so den will I accept ur help...
Even though I feel better after crying out n see the wonder n beauty of the fireworks, I still feel the darkness n emptyness... I really love her n put in alot of effort to maintain it, just can't bear to lose it lor... But the power of one is not enough, it takes two to perform a miracles. So dear do u understand!!! Dun feel bad abt urself cuz I am neither very good too!!! Pls dun leave me alone, we should bear it together!!! U knew tt we both have invest alot in it n been thru alot so we should really treasure it rather than giving up!!!
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Sunday, August 08, 2004
On the verge of depression!!!
posted by JoN3d!5oN @ 23:55
