***And you shall know the truth. And the truth will set you free!!!***

Jonedison Chris Jr

KnOw MoR3 AbT M3!!!
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Things to be done in the next 5 yrs!!! (not in order)
1. Be committed in Church and God!!!
2. Do well in my Job and have a stable income
3. Revamp my room n my wardrobe
4. Hope to get a partner!
5. Beef up n toned up my body

"In life there is no smooth journey but journey tt is full of challenges for u to face it!!! But whether u take it the positive ways or the negative ways... Dun live a regretful life but a life full of purpose n desires n Dreams yet to be fulfilled..."

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Dark magician. You love the dark because of it's beauty and just the life that no-one else sees. Mysterious, calm, quiet... But that doesn't mean you're not friendly!
What kind of dark person are you?

Part Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges. If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story. You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses. A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

Part Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity. You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off. And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave. When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

Tuesday, August 31, 2004

A thought of Inspiration!!!

"An insincere and evil friend is more to be feared than a wild beast; a wild beast may wound your body, but an evil fren will wound ur mind."
"We call tt person who had lost his father, an orphan; and a widower tt man who has lost his wife. But tt man who has known the immense unhappiness of losing a fren, by wat name do we call him? Here every language is silent and holds its peace in impotence."
"When I find myself fading, I close my eyes n realize my frens are my energy"
"Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It's not sth u learn in school. But if u haven't learned the meaning of friendship, u really haven't learned anything."
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them

What Hug Can Do~????

A hug is a wonderful gift to share, A way to show each other that we care; There is so much a hug is able to do, When you feel those arms holding you.
A hug is a place to feel safe and warm, A comfort for a sad heart that is torn; An expression of the love in our heart, For ones who we wish, never to be apart.
A hug is a greeting when we meet to say hello, Or to say goodbye when we have to go; It can hold us up when life gets us down, And makes us smile, instead of frown.
A hug can be given for no reason at all, And given to those, both big and small; We're never too old to feel the joy it brings, As it is one of life's most pleasing things.
And for all of this beauty, a hug is free! It costs nothing, yet means so much to me;
We should all hug another to show we care,
For to feel a warm hug, nothing can compare.

I've searched around the world from north to south, and east to west. Day and night, in search of a friend because I only wanted the best. This friend must be kind and sincere, happy and full of cheer. Someone who knows how to have lots of fun, and when times get rough, won't run. Though I've searched the world looking for you, my friendship wishes finally came true. I FOUND YOU!

Monday, August 30, 2004

A Super FuN N LoNg Celebration of Teachers' Day!!!

Today I was almost late for school, luckily manage to bump into Zaidah who give me a lift to school tt saved me!!! Today our class theme for Teachers' Day Celebration is Retro!!! WE all dressed up for the event n everyone look so cool n hip!!! Today we had lesson till 1.25pm den we have a break till 2.50pm den the celebration will kick start with inter-CG competition... Den we had Soiree, a night party in our school... MJC rockz!!!

We dun really study much in school today as everyone is almost on holiday n fun mode... I shall not talk abt school today during lesson but I will share with u more on the celebration... During the lunch break, we were doing all the make-up n rehearsal for the performance in the inter-CG competition... We had alot of fun n laughter... The dance step tt we learn was so power n cool la... I love it man!!! Den after all the practice n stuff, it is time for us to show off our talent to the ppl in our school... Along we also watch other classes performance n some r very nice n funny, but some is totally suck lor... We enjoy ourselves in the inter-CG competition...

As the night approach, we go for Soiree, it was the first where we gather the whole school population to come as one to watch it, even though some of them choose not to come but we still have alot of fun n entertainment... The Soiree was superb!!! I love it men!!! ELDDS Rockz!!! Arts Faculty Rockz!!! The whole thing lasts till 9.15pm... But the whole process was fun n worth... But the times I reach home I was half dead beat n half overwhemled by the performance... All I know was tt when all was over my voice was almost gone n feeling very sore... The reason behind it was tt I was like shouting madly in the performance to cheer the ppl on... Like cheering for the school also when the thing end, Cheer for the teachers who win the President Teachers award, Caring award...

All I can say is tt I enjoy myself alot today for the celebration... MJC Rockz!!! U Go Man!!! Jia You!!! We will show other wat we had is not just academic but also excellent talents among us... WE r Hip n Cool!!!

Sunday, August 29, 2004

A ToUcHiNg Story!!!

Peter and Tina are sitting in the park doing nothing, but just gazing into the sky, while all their friends are having fun with their beloved half.
Tina: I'm so bored. Just wish I have a boyfriend now to spend time with.
Peter: I guess we're the only leftovers. We're the only person who isn't with a date now. (both sigh n silence for a while)
Tina: I think I have a good idea. Lets play a game
Peter: Eh? What game?
Tina: Eem..It's quite simple. You be my boyfriend for 100 days and I'll be your girlfriend for 100 days. what do you think?
Peter: Oookay..Anyway I don't have any plan for the next few months.
Tina: You sound like you aren't looking forward to it at all. Cheer up. Today will be our first day and our first date. Where should we go?
Peter: What about a movie? I heard that there is a really great movie in theater now.
Tina: Seems like I don't have any better idea than this. Lets move. (went to watch their movies and sent each other home)
Day 2: Peter and Tina went to a concert together, and Peter bought Tina a keychain with a star.
Day 3: They went shopping together for a friend's birthday present. Share an ice-cream together and hugged each other for the first time.
Day 7: Peter drove Tina up onto a mountain and they watch the sunset together. When the night came and the moon glowed, they said sat on the grass gazing at the stars together. A meteor passed by. Tina mumbled something.
Day 25: Spend time at a themepark and got onto rollercoasters, and ate hotdogs and cotton candy. Peter and Tina got in the haunted house and Tina grabbed someone's hand instead of Peter's hand by accident. They laughed together for a while.
Day 67: They drove pass a circus and decided to get in to watch the show. The midget asked Tina to play a part as his assistant in the magic show. Went around to see other entertainments around after the show. Came to a fortune teller and she just said "Treasure every moment from now on" and a tear rolled down the fortune teller's cheek.
Day 84: Tina suggested that they go to the beach. The beach wasn't so crowded that day. They have their first kiss with each other just as the sun is setting.
Day 99: They decided to have a simple day and is deciding to have a walk around the city. They sits down onto a bench.
1:23 pm
Tina: I'm thirsty. Lets rest for a while first.
Peter: Wait here while I go buy some drinks. What would you like?
Tina: Eem...Apple juice will be just fine.
1:43 pm
Tina waiting for about 20 minutes and Peter havent return. Then someone walked up to her.
Stranger: Is your name Tina?
Tina: Yes, and may I help you?
Stranger: Justnow down there on the street a drunk driver has crashed into a guy. I think its your friend.
Tina ran over to the spot with the stranger and sees Peter lying on the floor with blood over his face and her apple juice still in his hands. The ambulance came and she went to the hospital with Peter. Tina sat outside the emergency room for five and a half hours. The doctor came out, and he sigh.
11:51 pm
Doctor: I'm sorry, but we did the best we could. He is still breathing now but God would take him away from us very soon. We found this letter inside his pocket. The doctor hands over the letter to Tina and she goes into the room to see Peter. He look weak but peaceful. Tina read the letter and then she burst into tears.

Here is what the letter said. Tina, our 100 days is almost over. I had fun with you during all these days. Although you may be greedy sometimes and less thoughtful, but these all brought happiness into my life. I have realize that you are a really cute girl and blamed myself for never taken the time to knowing that. I have nothing much to ask for, but I just wish that we can extend the day. I want to be your boyfriend forever and wish that you can be beside me all the time. Tina, I love you.

11:58 pm
Tina: (sobbing) Peter. Did you know what was the wish I made on the night there was a meteor. I asked God to let us last forever. We were suppose to last 100 days so Peter! You can't leave me! I LOVE YOU, but can you come back to me now? I love you Peter. I LOVE YOU. As the clock struck twelve, Peter's heart stopped beating. It was 100 days.

NOTE* Tell the guy or girl that you love them before its too late. You never know whats going to happen tomorrow. You never know who will be leaving you and never return

Saturday, August 28, 2004

Happy Teacher's day Preparation

Today is so cool, we went to Elroy's house to prepare stuff for teacher's day... We bought the necessary ingredients to make cake n cookies for the teachers... It is so cool making all the things... We also learn the dance tt we r going to perform for the teachers' day celebration... It was so fun n we enjoy ourselves alot... LOL... I have nth much to say today as nth much really happen today except tatia have a shock of her life.... She knew alot of secret today.... Hahaha!!! Tatia tt life just accept it, stimes life is so unpredictable n shocking....

Friday, August 27, 2004

A HaPpY DaY!!!

Today is a short day n I have recover much from my sickness liao... Today feel a bit better from ytd... Today I have a singing competition during my common lunch n it was so great as I won second prize... I was so shock n happy to win that prize... Later I went to Millenia Walk to study with my frens... Actually now I'm at Millenia Walk blogging (hahaha)... So happy to study in town again, it have been a long time since I come to town to study n in fuzion too... So happy!!!

Thursday, August 26, 2004

A sicky Day!!!

After all the sick moment n rest, I went to school today... All was well in the morning when I go to school... I was feeling kinda better after the medication n rest but the sickness start to get back again after Geog tutorial... So I have no choice but to apply for early leave to go home n rest... I was so damn tired n feel the terrible pain on my head tt I fall into a deeep sleeps when I reach home... I sleep from 1.30pm to 6.30pm n now I am feeling abit better... I think later I will also sleep early today to have more rest for tmr the singing competition... Hei ppl remember to go support me during common lunch to see my perrformance oki... I shall not blog any long liao cuz my headache is coming back again...

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

A long n fun DaY!!!

Hei ppl, I'm oki la just feel abit tired n sick after ytd blood donation... So today I intended to stay at home to rest n take MC... After taking the Mc from the polyclinic, I went to study at my fren's house... It was so cool la, enjoy myself n do alot of work today... Very productive... As I have said b4 it is much more better for me to stay at home to study myself den to go to sch to waste my time there... YA!!! I really think tt staying at home is a good idea for me... I learn more thing on my own n able to consolidate my stuff better... In sch I will feel sleepy n will not want to study lor...

Later after study at my fren's home, I went to watch movie "The Twin Effect 2"... It was so damn funny, I was laughing until the whole chair was shaking lor... But the show is good n worth even though the story line isn't kinda there but it is a good movie to destress...

Later I went to my another fren house(Shaun) for study help in CLA... He is Damn Power lor cuz his study notes is so best!!! I have no other words for him but is super Zhan by his effort in preparing for his A lvl... He is a very hard working n conscious abt his study n he really make the effort to give his very best to study for his exam... Shaun Jia You Ba U can make it for A lvl... I believe u can do it one n thanks for ur help...

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

Yet another long n tiring day!!!

I really start to hate school alot as I really find it a chore to go to school as it is really very sianz going there... It is like living hell where u dun know u go there for wat lor... Go there is like so sleepy n tired n no mood to study but yet at home my energy level is so high n I'm able to study more den anything...

Today went for blood donation n it is so sad as I give up half way due to side effects... I was feeling giddy n turn pale as I skipped my recess n do not have enough sleepz according to the doctor's diagnose... But it is oki at least now I can get a excuse to see a doctor n get MC to not go to school... (HAhaHAhaHA)... I really need alot of rest now... I wanna go home to sleep n do my own stuff... I Feel like dying now... Jumping down from the block n end this stupid life, Damn It is so stressful... Can't the teachers give us a break n let us go instead of forcing us to do so many thing n in the end cuz us to break down n there goes all our hard work!!! I'm so stress n F**ked up right now!!!

I dun wish to go to depression, I wanna be strong but the world is making me weak... I'm really so damn tired n stress... I wanna rest, I wan peace... but where can I find peace!!!

Monday, August 23, 2004

A very Tiring day, I want to sleep!!!

Wake up at 5.55am today... I only bArELy sleepz for a few hours n onli rest awhile onli... Feeling very sleepy but still have to go to school... Today is a long day for me as school ends very late on Monday, Tuesday n Thursday every week... I think the onli lesson I was fully awake is GP as there wasn't much lesson going on except Mr Cheong is going through some Keys Ideas abt ytd Prime Minister's Msg... Shit!!! I missed the Prime Minister's Speech, I wanted to watch it but can't as I went for the dinner n it clashes with each other... The other lesson, I wasn't really paying attention but was dozing off here n there as I was very tired n sleepy... I sleepz in Geog and Econ... During Maths lesson I was stoning... I skipped PE lesson today as I really dun feel like going for PE lesson as it is so useless... Now I really have the feeling of not going to school sia as it is really not productive for me to go as I dun really learn alot of thing but was stoning there... I rather stay at home to study as it is more useful tt way as I will really study n have some productive moments... Now I really need rest n alot of times spend on my revision on my own n not going to school n waste my time there... If I have problems den I'll seek my teachers help or else I think it is much better I survive on my own den... Can I?

Aiya dun know wat the world had become, it has become heartless, emtionless... I hope the PM can do sth abt it to change the whole situation tt both students n working adult is facing-- the stress n hectic level we r facing when our society is changing too rapidly for us to adapt... Hope he can come out with some good policy to help us... I think the 5-day working day is a good idea but will it really be implemented is still very subjectionble... Better do sth to it n make life easier or else I think Singapore is going to be no life!!! R we getting too obsessed in paper chase tt we lose our basic emotion n feeling n ignored the pressence of our loved ones ard us... Ppl better do alot of reflection n get a grip to life!!!

Sunday, August 22, 2004

A Long Day for Me!!!

Today had a great fun in doing some part time jobs... I wake up at 4.30am n accompany my father to go to work... I went to help up in some big organisation (North West Community Development Council)... They have this Brisk Walking event... It is so cool there, get to know some ppl there even though dun really had a chance to know them better or keep in contact if there is such event again... When I reach there, I help to pack the stuff tt will be distributed to the ppl... Den we had to pack the leftover back again... There is these annoying scence wherreby there is this lady who is so thick-skinned n annnoying who wanted to carry away one cartons of tissue paper n kept saying it is for her friends... I couldn't imagine tt she can say these lies n trying to bluff us off... Of course the organisation does not condole to her request la... Den she made a big fuss abt the whole thing n wanted to make a report abt it which is so sick!!! I think these really show the bad side of Singaporean who is so kiasu n dun know therir limit... No matter how greedy u r, u got to have a limit to wat u doing or else u r juz disgracing urself... The leftover stuff, we went to distributed it to the elderly n needy families... So I had a fun n caring day to the community... Den after all these, I went home to have some rest cuz at night I'm going for some dinner event...

I went to the Chinese Hungry Ghost festival's Dinner at Bedok with my grandma... It was cool going out with my grandma as I'm always close with her... The dinner ended very late at 11pm... dEn I was so dead tired by den as I wake up so early n was still awake at late night... So I stayed over at my grandma house n will go to school from there as she stayed at Tampines...

Saturday, August 21, 2004

A w0nDeRfUl DaY!!!

Today have Geog Paper 1 Mock exam, it was kinda hard but manageable... I hope I can at least pass as these will be a boost of my confidence for A lvl... I really depends on these man... After the paper, I went out with my fren, I think I'm kinda in love again... Hahaha!!! WE went out together to eat n chit chat awhile... Den I send my fren home... Love the feeling, hahaha!!! Nva felt loved b4 by sone who really care n concern for me... Feel very different from the past as the past relationship wasn't like tt... Hope these can really mean alot n lasts if we decided to be together... Better dun think too much too as A lvl is approaching n must do well too so as can match each other standards... Hahaha!!! Luckily these few days I have been working very hard to prepare for exams...

Attachment from someone's blog(my Fren's Fren one):
"I used to be a happy person. Used to be someone who believes there's something called forever. There's no special strategy or what for me to be like that. The only reason was because I found the one I love. And so luckily, the person loves me. Everyday was something new. There's things to anticipate. I never felt lonely. Because someone is always there for me. As time goes by, I took this for granted. I didn't treasure what I had. And finally, I've lost it. I have this constant void in my heart. This permanent space. No one seem to be the right one to fit in. I don't know. It's just like that. And the only person I can blame for this is myself. Life become meaningless. I lost all my hopes. All my dreams. I forgotten who I am... In fact, I don't know who I am anymore. Living seems like a chore. Everyday was like a stageplay. I have to pretend to be happy. I have to pretend to move on. Most importantly, I have to pretend I don't love the person anymore... I don't want to pretend anymore... Because I really do love the person. Everything I do... Everywhere I go... Whenever the person appear in my mind... My heart starts to ache... No matter how much painkiller I take... The pain... It just wont't go away... I ran away from reality... I tried telling myself. Everything is okay. But whenever I come back to reality. The pain is intensified. The sense of loneliness. The sense of hopelessness. Just fills me up. Right to the brim. I miss the times when I can still see the person. I miss the times when I can still hear the person. I miss the times when the person will just be there. I miss the times when life was complete."

Hei ppl it is true when u lose ur love, it is kinda sad but always look on the bright side n believe tt one day a better one will come n replace the hurt, void, emptiness u feel in life... Like me, Even though I lost Xiao Yun, but now I have sone better waiting for me... Dun lose hope, Dun lose urself but continue to press on n move on in life so tt u will see ur Mr or Mrs Right one day in the end n u will be happy once again... So dun worry neither lose hope, it is important to have hope in life as it really motivate u in life...

So sad Singapore almost able to get at least a gold or silver for Olympic have gone down the drain... But it is still oki cuz Li Jia Wei is best n really put up a good match... The match was really well play maybe it is just tt luck isn't on our side tt all... Li Jia Wei Jia You n All the best to u... Hope u can win a bronze medal for us!!!

Friday, August 20, 2004

A day of mugging!!!

Today feel abit kinda sick n nva go to school today... I went to see a doctor to get a MC to excuse from school... The doctor is kinda funny cuz I was complaining abt having split headache tt shifted from the left to the right n I kept losing my appetite... I also complain abt having some chest pain n feeling nauseas lately... Den the first word tt come out of his mouth is tt " R u stress " but I replied I'm not but feel very tired easily lately... But after checking up he ask the same qns again which is really annoying me as I'm really not feeling very well... N retorted tt I'm really not stress... So he continue to check my body n pressure n ask the same qns again tt this time trying to entertain him n satisfied him tt I replied tt "ya I'm abit only" den he den stop asking n said just bear with it oki JC life is like tt... I was so pissed n can't be bother la... So later I go n get my medicine n leave tt darn place... After tt I went to Airport to study Geog for tmr exam... Study until !@ plus den I went to take a break n also make a police report for the lost ticket for the fund raising thing which is so stupid n annoying to do so... Later I went to walk walk n meet my fren (Mr Prince) n study with him... Study with him is kinda cool la cuz NJC ppl are so on in study (oops stereotyping hahaha)... But enjoy being with my frens as it is always so motivating n fun... Later I went back to airport to study again with Christel... Study until 7pm den I went home to rest as I really need alot of rest right now!!!

Thursday, August 19, 2004

A Lot of Stressful Things Happening Ard!!!

Sianz sia wat had happen to this World!!! Everyone is feeling stress either for students, the exam n prelim n HW, or the working adults abt their jobs security... Wat the the World become, is it becoming more stressful n hard to live in, or hard to cope with the increasing globalisation tt result in better efficiency in allocating resources n increase productivity... My father is recently out of job n is trying very hard to find one... A while ago he is still employed n now he is unemployed... It only take the job for a few days n off he goes unemployed again... Wat the society wants from us is getting on ppl nerves as we do not know wat they want... Just now I go accompany my Grandma n talk to her n her friends...(I Love My grandma alot)... I heard from one of my grandma's friends who is suffering as her husband dun want to work but yet demand money from her wife which is so wrong n immoral la... Can't stand these kind of ppl who always depend on other instead of making an effort to work n support urself rather than asking ppl for money... I think now it is also very hard to be employed due to the recession, I hope tt the World can recover fast or else ppl are suffering...

The education system is also very sucky n creates alot of problems n students are getting stress up not becuz they dun know but they dun know how to handle the problems... Not just tt, teachers are also getting stressed up becuz they can't bear to see us suffer but they still have to do it n bear it with us... The irony part is when we r totally burn out n stress, teachers start blaming us for not putting in enough effort where we actually put in alot le... The stress lvl tt the modern society faced is getting more more worst... But what can we do but we just have to adapt to it n make necessary changes to suit the situation we r in right now...

I think the education system n the policy tt the government choose should be make with more consideration n not to sudden as it is too hard for some of us to adapt to it as we may not be able to changes as fast as the words being said... We can say easily but action wise we may not be able to do it unless given enough time to do it... Hei ppl we have to learn to adapt but stimes we should learn to let go n forget abt some stress but look onto the bright side of life n face it with more optimistic looks

Super Tired n Sianz!!!

Today is a long tiring day for me... I feel damn sick today going to school, I dun really like the feeling of tt... I now really hate to go to school, it seems to be no life!!! First lesson was GP lesson, it was still oki n fun as I happen to do some essay qns I like... It was den followed by two period of Geography which My energy level starts to decline but was oki la... I really hate the 03A102 ppl cuz they were like asking stupid qns abt Geog which really pissed me off (sorry to be very angry here)... I means until now u all are still unable to identify those ans... It is so sad la... I really pity Mr Chen as I think he probably feel (very) bad abt it... Later I went for Maths lesson as usual I'm slacking la... The best things happen today is my quarrel with my CT during two lesson [one in Maths lesson, the other during PCCG period]... She is so funny la, angry at small trivial things... I wonder how she is able to cope with all the small hipcup in her life... Probably she had a sad life after all, so easily pissed off... (tsk tsk tsk...)... As usual again had econ tutorial (everyday have one :( how I hope can end school earlier or skip his lesson so scary during his lesson n also kinda boring too...) I was dozing off n feeling really sleepy in his lesson... But his lesson today seems oki not very stress but still boring.... (hahaha :))

Going to have CLA test today... But now I skip PE n is in the library blogging n doing my reading so tt after this period will have enough energy for the test later... I hope I can do well even though I dun really study much for it...

Hei ppl dun feel pessimistic or stress up right now... It is not the time for it right now... Peak ur energy for A lvl rather than for prelim even though prelim is equal important but dun emphasize too much for prelim but for A lvl... Hei ppl learn to strike a balance between study n play... Dun play too much but neither play too little, Dun study too much nor study too little... Tried to reach a stage of compromise n balance ur energy... I think now I really need a lot of rest as I feel myself losing my usual self... I dun feel the usual behaviour of myself probably due to too much things happen in my life right now... I need rest!!! Hei can sone offer me a good idea of where to relax myslf one day like spa therapy or wat... Tag it on my tagboard if u have any suggestion so tt I can go try it out la... I feel tt we should now cool down abit but still know wat we r doing n expecting so tt u wun go off track but still stay on track but at a slower pace so tt u have enough breathing space to breathe...

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

So TiReD!!!

Today is a short day though but I feel very tired since the begining of the day... It is probably nva slpz well ytd night even though I slpz early ytd... I kept dozing off in lesson sia... Feel reallly tired abt life n school!!! I can't concentrate in class as I was so tired n wants to sleepz... After school supposed to go airport study but in the end receive a msg to meet up with my frens... Den we go out to eat n talk abt wat had happen lately... Enjoy the moments with my frens, they r always so encouraging n the reason tt keep me moving... Love to be with them as I felt being myself totally without restictions n barriers... I love my frens, they are always so nice to me... Feel as if I'm some royal blood family members (vampires of twin effect- kazzaf's bro[hahaha]!!!) treated with care n respect by them... Hahaha!!! Feel being loved, the feeling is so Gd!!! I wanna go watch twin effect 2... Mr Prince accompany me lei!!!

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

Spread LoV3 Ard!!!

Xavier's quote: "Love is everything humans need...once you find love, treasure them..not waste them and tell lies to them...commit your time and everything to them share your thoughts and learn from the past..."

Love is beautiful... Dun lie, Dun cheat, Be mutual, Show respect... These r very important in maintian relationship (all kinds- friendship, relationship, brothership, sistership, kinship)... I think everyone should be given a chance to love n be loved... I also feel tt the best love tt is ever shown into this world is God's Love for everyone, followed by Self Love, Next is the love tt u show to ppl especially to ur enemies (the hardest things on earth but yet if u can do it, u r best!!!)... Ppl be encouraged n be prepared for the battle ahead!!!

Cutie Boi's Quote: "Be A pErSoN Full Of LoVe & LiFe. StAy SiMpLe yEt hApPy. wHeN tHiNgS gO WrOnG, dUn gO bLuE. jUsT PrAy & sAy 'I wiLL gEt tHrU'... 0wAyS rEm i'll B dErE 4 u :)"

We should always share our care n concern to our frens to encourage them... U nva know these words of encouragement can do alot of things... Stimes it come just at the right time to help u... As stimes when we feel down, it happen tt we nva tell anyone but sone just happen to send a sms to cheer u up out of sudden... Utimately u will feel better even though the person who send the msg may not know wat happen...

Labels: Personal Sharing

Truth Reveal!!!

I can't believe I'm so naive n be treated as a Low esteem person by sone (The person better watch out!!! U will paid for it)... I'm not trying to be mean or wat but it is just a fact tt I can't get over it n it is pissing me off... If u dun like me tell me str8 at my face... Dun beat ard the bushes n inflict more pain to me... Wat the f**king shit is these!!! Sorry to be vulgar here!!! It's annoying to know the truth at the last moment which u intially hold much hope in it n think all thing is still very bright n thing can be work out well n sort thing out... But I have learnt from these mistakes, I will not let these things hurt me again!!! Thanks for telling me the truth behind it even though it is not from tt person's mouth (which tt person shld) !!! I'm really going to kill tt person!!! But I will be nice here den maybe not kill as I dun wan to commit sin of murder... I will back off from these foolish thing from now on... I will forgive but not forget these things tt the person did to me n ask sone to keep a secret whereby these truth should be revealed... All along I'm living in darkness n naive thinking which have cause me too much pain right now!!! NVM!!! I will try to learn how to forget as least tt will give ppl chance, but chances should be tresure or else there wun be any anymore... Better treasure wat u have or else u will regret tt u didn't... I will take it as it is!!! If u wan forgiveness better ask it b4 I decided to turn my back on u...

The Lord is my source n my provider... He will heals me from these things now it is the time I really get heartless n not think abt patching up things anymore but to swear all ties tt is to come... (ppl out there who offended me better watch out ur steps, as saggis go out to kill, They Kill n show no mercy... We Bring Fiery in us tt even hell will trembles!!!)... All along the false hope tt I hold on too is really a bad experience... I think I just have to get over it n work things out n build barriers to defend these things... My battle is on... Whoever wanna fight, can bring it on... Saggis' power can be defied...

Monday, August 16, 2004

I dun wanna go School liao!!!

Shaun said: "Pre Exam Syndrome or PES, is a illness only students will encounter. Let me tell you the symtoms, Monday seems to be blue, Tuesday is sky blue, Wednesday is green as it's closer to weekends, Thursday is orange as weekend is real near and school is going to be forgotten, Friday is red, cause thank god it's friday, last day of school, Saturday is superb yellow, Sunday is super dark blue, cause school is starting again, and we have to go through the whole process again. So you see, I'm super dark blue now.The enthusiasm in me to go school is no longer there, I think going to school is a waste of time, I would rather do self revision, which I think is much more effective, cause I rarely have questions to ask my teachers. I really don't feel like attending school la, like no point, just wasting my time away. But at least I get to enjoy my friend's company." Shaun copyright...

I think I'm suffering from tt... I totally agree with wat my friend had said... I now dun really feel like going to school... I rather stay at home or go airport to study myself... I feel more productive tt way... Teachers r kinda stressing us up (not all but some)(some tachers are stress up by us)(hahaha!!!) I think the teachers think too much liao... Mr Chen is one of them tt are stressed by us, he is kinda worried for us cuz he say until now some of the stuff we still not really clear... I think it is not tt we r not clear, it is just tt the concept doesn't come into our mind tt fast... Mr Cheong is also worried cuz we r like losing hope in our study, he tried to encourage us though... Mr naresh 4eva demoralise us (we feel stressed up here)... Ms Ong always complain tt AO maths is not easily to score (so wat!!!) Hate to herad her say tt... I feel bad bitching here but tt is wat I experience now in school... My journey in school is Bad!!! Dun wanna go to school unless I really need help from the teacher which I hardly need (not becuz I'm smart or wat), it is tt when I need them I will find them... Wat I really need is tt I need to consolidate my stuff b4 anyth to come... Or else no matter wat I learn in school is not effective n productive...

I say on Sunday how much I want revival. But then on Monday, I can't even find my Bible. Where's the power. The power of the cross in my life. I'm sick of playing the game of religion. I'm tired of losing my reason for living. Where's the power. The power of the cross in my life. I'm not content just to walk through my life, giving in to the lies, Walking in compromises now. We cry out as a generation that was lost. But now is found in the power of the cross
Chorus: We believe in You. We believe in the power. Of Your Word that is true.
We believe in You. So we lay down our cause. That our cross might be found in You.
I'm not satisfied doing it my own way. I'm not satisfied to do church and walk away. I'm not satisfied there's no love in my life but You. I'm not satisfied living in yesterday's hour. I'm not satisfied to have the form but not the power. I'm not satisfied, Lord I am crucified in You
(Chorus)

A song tt cheer u n me up... Hope u like it... It is Hillsong-Believe!!! Let us press on, just hope tt u all wun burn out b4 prelim (I'm on the verge liao!!!) Dun worry the Lord will take care of my need n urs!!! Pray to the Lord in all things... Hope all will make it to the end!!!

I'm So Proud oF U, Ronald Susilo!!!

U all will probably think I'm crazy n nutty but nvm... I'm so proud of Singapore to have Ronald Susilo... This morning he defeat the world champion... I was watching the match between Singapore n China... My heart was like pounding so madly n hoping tt Singapore can win this match n it did!!! One cheer for Singapore, One cheer for Ronald Susilo... Finally Singaporean have sth tt they r proud of, in the Olypmics... Jia You, we will always support u Singapore!!! ( abit patriotic)...

A bit hyper cuz me thinking about sth tt just happen recently, dun know is it I get over it liao tt make me have these sudden feeling... Or is it I still linger to the past... I hope to get over it soon, at least I wun get too trouble by it... I am recharged now for the next thing to come whether is it a new Lov3 or studies or anything, I'm now prepare for it n willing to go all out n charged at it n fight for my right... I will continue to spread God's LoV3 ard n Hopefully sone will come into my life again (sone special)... Just feeling happy now after watchng the match or else my feeling is so confused n depressed... Hope to continue to look on the bright side of life!!! Life is beautiful with God n My frens...

Sunday, August 15, 2004

Trust In God!!!

The only survivor of a shipwreck was washed up on a small, uninhabited island. He prayed feverishly for God to rescue him, and every day he scanned the horizon for help, but none seemed forthcoming. Exhausted, he eventually managed to build a little hut out of driftwood to protect him from the elements, and to store his few possessions. But then one day, after scavenging for food, he arrived home to find his little hut in flames, the smoke rolling up to the sky. The worst had happened; everything was lost. He was stunned with grief and anger. "God how could you do this to me!" he cried. Early the next day, however, he was awakened by the sound of a ship that was approaching the island. It had come to rescue him. "How did you know I was here?" asked the weary man of his rescuers. "We saw your smoke signal," they replied.
It is easy to get discouraged when things are going bad. But we shouldn't lose heart, because God is at work in our lives, even in the midst of pain and suffering. Remember, next time your little hut is burning to the ground it just may be a smoke signal that summons the grace of God. For all the negative things we have to say to ourselves, God has a positive answer for it :

You say: "It's impossible"...
God says: All things are possible=>(Luke 18:27)
You say: "I'm too tired"...
God says: I will give you rest=>(Matthew 11:28-30)
You say: "Nobody really loves me"...
God says: I love you=>(John 3:16 & John 3:34)
You say: "I can't go on"...
God says: My grace is sufficient=>(2 Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)
You say: "I can't figure things out"...
God says: I will direct your steps=>(Proverbs 3:5-6)
You say: "I can't do it"...
God says: You can do all things=>(Philippians 4:13)
You say: "I'm not able"...
God says: I am able=>(2 Corinthians 9:8)
You say: "It's not worth it"...
God says: It will be worth it=>(Roman 8:28)
You say: "I can't forgive myself"...
God says: I Forgive you=>(I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
You say: "I can't manage"...
God says: I will supply all your needs=>(Philippians 4:19)
You say: "I'm afraid"...
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear=>(2 Timothy 1:7)
You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"...
God says: Cast all your cares on ME=>(I Peter 5:7)
You say: "I don't have enough faith"...
God says: I've given everyone a measure of faith=>(Romans 12:3)
You say: "I'm not smart enough"...
God says: I give you wisdom=>(I Corinthians:30)
You say: "I feel all alone"...
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you=>(Hebrews 13:5)
Ps 118:8 " It is better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in man."

GoD is always there for u, Nva give up hope even when all hopes seems to fail... Children of faith, remember the Lord is always doing great thing in ur heart... Seek the Lord in all things u do...
{We're family tt loves loves loves, loves one another... We're family tt cares cares cares, for sisters n brothers... Thru sunshine or rain, we will love just the same... We're family tt loves loves loves, loves one another} A song of encouragement abt we r a family!!!

Labels: Personal Sharing

Be Happy!!!! Prayer works!!!

Philip 4:4-9 Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I will say, rejoice! Let your gentleness be known to all men. The Lord is at hand. Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy--meditate on these things. The things which you learned and received and heard and saw in me, these do, and the God of peace will be with you.

Step 1. Worry abt nth
Be anxious for nth
40% of ur worry wun happen, 30% of ur worry is abt the past, 12% of ur worry is needless health concern, 10% of ur worry is insignificant, 8% of ur worry is actual concern to u... so in reality u onli have 8% of worry
Set Urself worry time for the 8% of the worry...
Step 2. Pray abt everything (mirco n marco problem)
Use ur worry time to pray
Nth in life u can't pray abt but u got to be specific in it.. Stimes problem could be a blessing in disguise...
Step 3: Thanks God in all things
Give thanksgiving
Gratitude=> be grateful=> Be happy
1 thess 5:18 in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.
God have a purpose greater than my problems... We got to have full of faith in the Lord...
Step 4. Think abt the right things
The way u think determines how u feel... The way u feel determined how u react...

Cast all ur anxiety onto the Lord tt u may have the peace of God in u tt u will rejoice n be happy n not live in sorrow n darkness...

Labels: Personal Sharing, Sermon

Saturday, August 14, 2004

Happily ever after!!!

Have everyone ever wish to have a everlasting love ending with ur dear like some fairy tale story? I yearn to have one (a perfect one)... But stimes reality dun permits unless u work it out n put in alot of effort... I think to make a relationship strong n everlasting needs alot of hard work cuz along the way there will be alot of trials n tribulations to face... Once u go thru it, ur relationship will move on to the next lvl... I will wanna build a better relationship n strengthen it... But utimately I have build one very good one!!! My relationship with God!!! It had maintain a strong one seen sec 1... Even though there is trouble times which makes me almost wanna give up but the Lord is always good n there for me so tt I nva choose to let go Him!!! The lord is always so wonderful n perfect... I think we should treasure thing tt r perfect cuz it is hard to come by so ppl nva give up relationship whenever possible... The Lord have been a good one all these years n times... He is a good motivator, encourager, healer, provider and everything u can ever ask for from Him!!! I will nva wanna backslide from God n will stand firm on His promises n grow in Him... I may have done thing to hurt Him but He nva fails to forgive n forgets... But we should also not take things for granted... So I will learn to be faithful to Him n be a good son... But stimes there is alot of grey region which I find it disturbing cuz u wun know how to handle cuz u dun know whether it is gd or bad... But the Lord is merciful, He will understands... For He is the creator of our faith n understands wat His children went thru n comfort them... For every step u take closer to God, He will take a thousand steps closer to u... So God is good all the times, N all the times God is good... I love Him always n my heart for Him will nva change... Just like He loves me, I will do the same back to Him... His love for me is unconditional... How can I expect more den... But I would wanna be like Him n Spread His LoV3 ard... I would become missionary one day to reach out to the lost n spread this LoV3 ard, showing care n concern for everyone n if I finally have my dear I will do the same but of course more la (hahaha, understanable right) cuz after all she is ur wife... So LoV3 is 4eva wonderful... Hei ppl, continue to spread LoV3 ard den, so tt u can live happily ecer after... Enjoy everlasting life...

Friday, August 13, 2004

A happy day with my frens!!!

Today is a very short day!!! Have fun in school though... Geog is so Fun!!! I love Mr Chen's Lesson... He is so n2 abt our lesson n nva fail to keep us awake in lesson... GP lesson is cool too... Mr Max say my English had kinda improve as compare to the past... So glad to hear this comment... Finally see light in GP...

After school I went to meet my fren who is going to comfort me... Feel so gd to have these frens ard to comfort me in times of downturn... They are so nice to me sia... When all things seems hopeless, The Lord will not forsake u but deliver u just as He did to me by sending frens to comfort me... I think I have also learn new thing from them thru their experience share to me (much appreciated)...

I'm less confused now n less hurt even though I nva expect this to happen... Cuz I'm hopeful tt the relationship will lasts but now I think I just have to accept fate... Maybe I will have better one along the way (btw I kinda have sone in mind) Hahaha!!! I also dun know y we shld break up la, cuz the reason behind it is so unclear to me but I just accept it as it is... So tut me... Maybe I really think abt it liao, Since she dun want no point forcing her... smore also cry abt it liao n feel tt I am a bad relationship person... Maybe tt is my punishment(hahaha)...

But after all I'm still kinda optimistic... I just have to let go, Lets God heals my wound... Hahaha The Lord is always gd to us... Hoping gd thing will come pretty soon sia...

Thursday, August 12, 2004

It is all abt compromise!!!

Life is so irony!!! Life is so complex n at times u dun know wat u do is right or wrong but u just happen to do it!!! Stimes it is so bad tt u step into a pit n fall terribly den u learn ur mistake... Or u so happy engrossed with it tt u forget abt other thing ard u... So I feel we really need to have a form of compromise whereby we dun go so far n yet not stay put on the original position... These is a challenge tt all will face... We have to move on but will limit so tt neither u overshot nor move too little without progress!!! So I think stimes we have to take thing slow, stimes we had to take things abit faster!!! When doing thing we should weigh the cost n benefit n reach a stage of compromise la...

I think now it is a time for reflection abt my relationship... Is it tt I do too much to maintain a relationship n put in too much tt the other party feel intimidated... Or is it I put in too little or screw up the relationship myself... I think now is a times where I really have to do sth to it n comes to a conclusion... But L0V3 is so beautiful tt nth can be defined to express wat it means even u knew abt bad thing will happen or better thing to come... Love is like a rose, it is so beautiful but it also hurts... But we have to learn to take life as it is n easy... U can cry n sobs abt it but in the end u still have to stand up n face the cruelty of the reality... Mian dui xian shi...

Mr Potter says "hmm.. dun wori la.. tings will b fine.. bud if tings are meant to happen, it'll happen sooner or latr"

Hei ppl, sad to say I'm done with the relationship liao... But ppl dun worry oki, I'm fine la... I means in some sense I already cry abt it b4 no point having a relationship n have an unhealthy growth right... I think I just have to accept the reality n face it... I think life is so unpredictable la... One second b4 all thing seems fine n hopeful but the next seconds all thing just go down the drain n all life support fail... But life still move on ppl, take it easy man...

But it is very wasteful to lose this relationship... But still hopeful for a better one to come maybe... Dear it is really a sad thing but I think I just have to face reality n accept fate... Who knows maybe God have another alternatives... Ya remember the Lord nva forsake u!!! He carries u thru the darkness times n bring light into ur lifr... He nva fail to brighten up ur life!!! God is Good, All the Times!!! Amen!!!

Labels: Personal Sharing

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

Hei Ppl!!! Thanks alot!!!

Thanks alot to u all for helping me n cheering me up!!! I wanna thanks u all so much for ur encouragement!!! I wanna thanks Cutie boi n Mr Potter for cheering me up by accompanying me today!!! So happy n thanks alot, We studyed together sia in town just now!!! I really wanna thanks Cutie boi for his nice n best times spend with me encouraging me... Long time since I receive such great engourgament in my life... Love the bitching session we had(hahahah)... I also wanna thanks Mr Potter for cheering me up by accompanying me... But i also wanna thanks Mr Prince for ur ever eager supportive crappy ideas tt kinda cheer me up too... Today in school was kinda low profile as I was kinda tired...

I also wanna thanks my classmates who also encourage me n cheer me up, ppl like Joy Tya Sappy Elroy Kala... Thanks alot guys for ur care n concern... I also wanna thanks my dear Xiao Mei, Maureen for cheering ur da ge up too!!! Thanks alot guys!!!

Dear Xiao Yun, I really hope u happy oki!!! Love u always la!!! Muackz muackz muackz!!!

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

A transitional period!!!

Hei ppl dun worry abt me k!!! I'm alright liao, my dear, Xiao Yun is willing to give ourselves another chance to try thing out again... We decide to enjoy wat we have now n dun bother so much abt the future... We will let nature take its course... Now it is tt we both really love each other so much to the extent we scared tt one day wat if we hurt the other party we will feel bad abt it... So she decide y not end now to reduce the pain earlier but u all know it hurt more n dun really work out... Our love for one another is words tt can't be explained... Now we r giving each other chance to love n maintain these relationship... Both of us know tt these relationship is really our turning point in life, nva had we had such a close relationship b4 tt we r really truly affected by it n it transform our life completely...

Dear I truly LoV3 u from the bottom of my heart, My love will Last as long as u n me is willing to build on... My love for u is everlasting even though there will be alot of thing to face along the journey... I will try my best to not get distracted nor led astray... I onli want u n not one else... Love u 4eva!!! Muackz Muackz Muackz!!!

I love U Dear, Xiao Yun!!!

My love for u haven change but I'm really confused now on whether do u love me anot... Stimes u act cold n yet stimes u r so nice... I really wish we can be together!!! I really wanna called u dear instead of friend... I wish u can consider... I think u shouldn't bother too much whether in near future r we going to be together anot cuz not one can predict the future... I also know tt u r worried in some sense when next yr I go NS will I change my heart... I will dare to say tt my heart will not change as I have invest so much to the extent I will not let go nor give up on this relationship... Xiao Yun I really love u n treasure u in my heart... Pls give me a firm ans so tt we will not wait in vain for nth... I dun want u to flicker n be sad, I want u to be happy... As long u r happy, I will be happy... Understand Dear!!! U knew tt I have cry enough, same goes to u... U can be so worried abt me n yet u still wanna give up... If u wanna give up den u shouldn't be worried... If u can't stop urself worrying, den y not carried on with it n look on the bright side of life... Life is very irony at times u got to stand up n face it... If u dun do it, no one will...

Thanks for all the encouragement from my frens!!! Thanks a lot for helping me go thru this darkness times... Thanks u O Lord for sending ur angels to protect me n my dear!!! Lord I pray for ur protection over my dear!!! Take care of her n help her pass thru the deepest valley just as u have carried me thru!!! Lord open up her heart to let her see wat she really want n help her to understand... I cry out to u for Help!!! Help us!!! U're my everything... Give us Wisdom n Strength, Lord I give u Praise n Glory!!!

I wanna thank Mr Prince, Cutie Boi, Mr Potter, Samuel, My classmates, Bros, Frens n all who have help me!!! Mr Prince have encorage me to look on the bright side n thing will work out one( he also try his best to cheer me up)... Cutie Boi have tell me tt maybe both of us need more time to spend together... Mr Potter have tell me to cool down n relaxz maybe sth will happen in the end, who knows right?... Samuel have accompany me n comfort me n say tt there is still hope u just have to continue hoping for it ... Bros have encourages me to move on n hope for the best... Frens have encourage me not to be too sad, things will work out well... Hei ppl thanks alot for ur encouragement but I also hope my dear also have frens to encourage her!!! I hope she will be alright!!! I really want her to be happy!!! Can sone go help her??? Sone Help her too can!!!

Monday, August 09, 2004

Reply to the prayer!!!

Thanks u O lord for providing frens ard me to encourage me in times of despair n Lord I also thanks u for the part u play in my life n change my darkness into light n sorrow into joy!!! Lord I will always Love U n seek u First in all thing I do... I am glad tt Xiao Yun had ans to me even though it is not a confirm ans yet, I'm still hopeful for it!!! I know the Lord will provide my needs n supplement for He is Jehovah Jireh, God of Provider... He is full of abunance n supply my needs... The Lord is my Strength n Cornerstone, He lays the foundation of my life...

Psalms 136:1 Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good. His steadfast love is eternal...

A prayer in times of darkness!!!

Today my feeling is on confusion state... I dun know wat to do n expected now... Life is very scary but I will continue to look at the bright side of life... I think I need to take time slow n need alot of rest now, I'm kinda burn out now... I really feel bad today of all the thing tt is happening right now... Now wat I can hope now is deliverance n miracle to happen... Lord I know U r always there for me everytime, now I really need ur embrance n ur LoV3... Tell me where have I gone wrong n guide me n lead me O Lord!!! In u I cast all my worries n in u I put my Trust, in u I Put my Faith tt all thing will come to past n my wound will be healed...

Lord u say in ur Word tt all things will pass away but ur Promises n ur Word will nva fade away... So Lord I Clings onto ur Word n pray tt u will Guide n Lead me so tt my path will not be in darkness but there will be hope n light onto my paths... Lord I cast my anxiety onto u n tt u will deliver me from darkness... In ur most exhalted name I pray, In Jesus Name, Amen!!!

Sunday, August 08, 2004

On the verge of depression!!!

Today meet up with my dear after service... She is still worried abt our relationship... Both of us wept again... I really love her no matter who she is but she just feel tt I'm too good for her... I think tt if u feel the other party is too good to u, it will means tt u urself are good to the other party too... This is mutual behaviour... I was kinda worried n sad for her cuz I really love her deeply which on one can can eva change tt n replace her... I was so stunned at the reaction she gave me when i meet her tt I also start crying again... After tt she asked me to go home myself n give her time to think abt our relationship... So in the end I ended up in marina Bay alone wtching the fireworks...

At abt 3-4 pm, I reach Marina Bay, I choose a nice place to sit, somewhere near the sea... As u know I love the sea as it is able to calm me down... I stare aimlessly at the into the sea n recall all the help I used to give to my fren n see if it can be applied to my case... Later i started singing to myself n tears just well up n I was crying... I dun know y but I kept thinking abt her, so afraid to lose her... I cried for hours when my one of my friends decide to drop by to comfort me which I dun really want cuz it end up in vain n wun help much... I just prefer to sort thing out myself... U all know tt I am very stubborn when it comes to deal thing on my own... Once I made a decision in my heart, no one can change it unless u have a valid reason n gd statements to stop me from doing so den will I accept ur help...

Even though I feel better after crying out n see the wonder n beauty of the fireworks, I still feel the darkness n emptyness... I really love her n put in alot of effort to maintain it, just can't bear to lose it lor... But the power of one is not enough, it takes two to perform a miracles. So dear do u understand!!! Dun feel bad abt urself cuz I am neither very good too!!! Pls dun leave me alone, we should bear it together!!! U knew tt we both have invest alot in it n been thru alot so we should really treasure it rather than giving up!!!

Success N Breakthrough

2Tim 3:16 All Scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness...

We got to carry the presence of God n the Word of the Lord... Build our foundation on the Word...
7 great works of the Word of God

1. The word is Nourishment for Strength n Growth
1 Peter 2:1-2 Therefore, laying aside all malice, all deceit, hypocrisy, envy, and all evil speaking, as newborn babes, desire the pure milk of the word, that you may grow thereby...
The word is our strength...

2. The word is a catalyst for Transformation
The Bible is a life transformer
James 1:23-25 For if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man observing his natural face in a mirror; for he observes himself, goes away, and immediately forgets what kind of man he was. But he who looks into the perfect law of liberty and continues in it, and is not a forgetful hearer but a doer of the work, this one will be blessed in what he does...
The Word of God will change ur inner self...
2 Cor 3:18 But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as by the Spirit of the Lord...

3. The word is illumination of the mind
Ps 119:130 The entrance of Your words gives light; It gives understanding to the simple.
Light => revelation from heaven
Understanding=> correct analysis for every situation
The differences between the fool n wise

4. The word is the Sword of the spirit
Eph 6:17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God
1 John 3:21 Beloved, if our heart does not condemn us, we have confidence toward God.
Have confidence in the Lord... Seek Him first in everything u do...

5. The word is a Creative force
Heb 11:3 By faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that the things which are seen were not made of things which are visible.
Creative=> u make sth out of nth, bring sth out of nth...
U got to speak the Word of the Lord, Confess His promises n His Word...

6. The word is a Author of Faith
U got to have power of God... Power of God come thrui the power of Faith...

7. The word of God is a Cleanser
In goes the word , out come the dirt!!!
Prayer n reading the Word is Important!!!

Labels: Personal Sharing, Sermon

Wat is Tru3 LoV3!!!

True love come abt when u see your love one is worried abt u n cry for u when they feel threaten in the relationship!!! It also come abt when each other is really in love with one another n put in alot of effort in it... I have seen this b4 n went thru it b4 in my life... The one love tt completely change my entire life which on one had yet done in me b4... Xiao Yun wept for me today and tell me all her fear she faced in the realtionship which I myself also feared... WE both cry abt it together... All I can say now is tt both of us is really into it and the love we had for each other is deeper than wat we both expected from each other, tt the reson why we feel intimidate by it n cry over it...

Dear, dun worry too much, we will be together if we know how to tresure one another... All I can say is tt no one treat anyone better without u urself treat the other better... We all know we have put in alot into the relationship so we got to hold on to it no matter wat happen... Xiao Yun I really love u always, no one can replace u in my heart from now on... My love for u will nva change nor die... I love u deeply...

Love can be pressurising when u love the other party deeeply and vice versa... It is when u feel tt wat if one day both of u r not together or leave each other, the pain tt is inflicted is unbearable... The pain u feel together with the other party can be too much n hurting... Everyone had tt feeling b4 if u r in relationship b4... How hurting it is when u r dejected or broke up with ur dear is a human torture... Den y not u tresure it den n make sure nth bad will happen... So ppl a word of advice: "We should tresure every relationship we had n maintain it well so tt there is no regret n hurt."

Everyone know tt it hurt to be in love n yet yearn to be loved... They knew abt the advantage of being love n also the consequences faced when they broke up... There is a saying goes "U reap wat u sowed"... So ppl y not we always try to reap the adv more den the consequences faced... These will make us stand strong with our love n nva let go so tt we will not break up or leave each other... These is the mighty power of love, Ai De Wei Da...

We should alsao always look on the bright side of life even though we know the dark side of it... since we know abt the dark side, y dun we fight to have the bright side light up so tt the dark side of it will cease... Weshould tresure the bright side and cling on to the promises of the bright side and hence we are able to be happy and reap the adv (in this case the adv of true Love n being in love deeply with each other 4eva)... Even though there may be difficulties in life, trials n tribulations in life, we should always held on to each other so tt our love will stand strong n withstand the external force... Remember it is u who control everything, others can only affect n control some... U hold the keys to ur heart, if u dun open it no one will... So if u want sth, u got to fight all out for it no matter wat is the cost to pay, but remember stimes there is consequences n benefits attached to it!!!

Dear, I have come so far n fight so far to gain u n I know tt the journey down the road is even harder but I will continue to press on for it no matter wat... Cuz I know it is worth doing so... The scarifice I make will make a difference to the happiness tt I desire for both of us... So I will not give up no matter wat... So dear if u want sth u have to fight for it so tt the reward is worth treasur for... Dun give up even though u feel the threat but continue to press on so tt u will treasure the ultimate reward in the end... It will be the best reward of all when u really fight all out for it... Stimes even when u feel tt wat u fight for seems vague but u still want it, den u really have to put in more effort for it so tt the prize u recieve is precious to u but dun waste ur energy if the prize is not worth in the end den u have to let go...

Love is beautiful no matter wat... without love there wun be any life... Love is a potion n yet a poison, it heals n yet kills, Love is everything tt keeps life moving yet however it can also stop life...Love can't be defined, it is just a feeling tt drives everything in porportion n motion n ever changing and evolving...

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Saturday, August 07, 2004

So Sad Got Chase out of house!!!

HAHA!!! U all will find it weird to see me kena chase out of house right!!! Not tt I did any thing wrong or wat... It is becuz according to some chinese customs when u reach the age of 15, there is a customs sth like a ritual... It is tt u will be treated like a king or queen, U r kind of get worship n get honour some sort... So this year is my sis's turn to do it... The most funny thing is tt my chinese horoscope clashes with my sis so tt I can't be at home when the ritual is conducted or else it will bring bad luck to her n me... Lame right but it is oki love to be outside den at home... Cuz can have more free time on my own without restriction... So I wun be at home until monday, den can I came back to my house... Tt is so cool, it will means tt I can go out on sunday free n den can meet my dear again... Yeah!!! Xiao Yun miss U LoV3 u always... So glad to meet u tmr den we can go study together n den go see fireworks... Yeah!!! Ppl dun envy me!!! LoV3 is so wonderful n addictive... Once u're in it, u r going crazy n nutz... Nth can stop the love nor destroy it as no one can stop nor destroy it unless it is by u or ur dear... But I think I will wanna maintain it as long as possible n lasts... I hope to married her sia... Hehehe!!! Sorry everything here is abit mushy la... Forgive me for tt!!! Now I feel tt even though the ritual is not for me, I feel like a king too!!! I'm in LoV3!!! Dear Miss U Lov3 U!!!

Friday, August 06, 2004

A HaPpY DaY!!!

Finally it is time for celebration... Today our school allow us to wear home clothes for the NDP celebration(unlike some school which dun allow sad for them)... But I have to comment one thing is tt this year performance is so sucky, the atmosphere is so dull unlike wat we had last year... I think we year two rockz... Our batch is much more better then this year batch (not just say by me but also the teachers too!!!)... We are just one of the kind n can't be compare with others... I think the teachers now start to appreciate us more liao as the year one are getting out of hand... We bring alot of nice memories to our teachers n friends in mjc, we r the BEST!!!

After the celebration, we have extra econ lesson but luckily it doesn't take much of our time... I'm glad tt Ms Wong nva drag our time n it ended at 11 am early den we expected... Actually during her lesson I wasn't really paying attention lor, cuz was busy smsing my dear n friends who are going out later after econ lecture... After 11am, me n my classmates decide to go to town to eat n shop... We had alot of fun there... A203 u all rockz!!! Love u all guys!!! We had great fun today!!! We also brought alot of gifts n present for those whose birthday are approaching!!! (Hei ppl whose b'day are coming, get ready to receive ur present soon... Hope u all will like wat we get for u!!!)

After tt I went to meet my dear... Xiao yun I love u dearly... She is so nice n charming today... We went to shaw tower to watch movie... We watch "The Village", it is damn nice... We enjoy ourselves while watching movie together... I think love is so powerful... It can change u completely n make u insane... Its ability to control ur emtion n manipulate ur minds is so powerful tt it is like u dun need anything to do to a person yet the person will just do it... Stime it is also like u can change a person completely to the extent tt u dun need to used force to force the person to change... Love is potent....

Dear I will love u forever, we will nva part... Love u always, Xiao Yun...

Thursday, August 05, 2004

A LoNg N Tiring Day!!!

Today is a long day for me!!! Have a fun n enriching GP lesson By Mr Max... He just went for a course on how Cambridge mark our GP paper n he came back to share with us... Learn alot of thing through his haring... I think now I have more confident for my GP exam... After tt we had Geog, as usual, Geog lesson is fun n interesting... Mr Chen Rockz!!! His teaching allow us to learn more than we can learnt n also relax while learning... There is no stress in his lesson...

Now is break time n is at the library blogging... Later is going to have econ tutorial, I dun feel like going sia... Later will have PE lesson, Hope the lesson will be fun!!! Have been having boring n dull PE lesson for weeks liao... Die La!!! Have to present CLA later to my classmates, Hope I wun faint or say anyth wrong...( hahaha ) cuz u all must know I suckz in my language...

Hope to talk to my dear later... Miss n Love Her Deeply... Hope she is not angry anymore... I feel tt our relationship will last long n till the ends of our days... Xiao Yun I love u 4eva...

Wednesday, August 04, 2004

A Damn Sad Day!!!

I was very sad now cuz I make my dear very sad... Becuz I was late for our meeting... I make my dear wait for me for 1 hour... I feel so bad now... Feel like slapping myself n punched myself for doing tt... I feel like giving myself a harsh beating up later... Sorry dear to make u so sad!!! Pls forgive me can?

Wat is LoV3? Is it all abt compromise or is it abt mutal dependent... Love a very complicated thing on Earth, it is able to bring u to the highest n yet can bring u to the lowest point in life... I always yearn to be loved n pass my love ard but I seems to be a total failure when it come to relationship... I suckz in it n always cuz alot of problems n misery... Maybe I'm not suitable for LoV3... I fail in all relationship sia... ??? Super Confused now...

Dear I Miss u n Love U!!! Pls Forgive me n dun ignoring me can... Love U 4eva!!!

A Refresh Day!!!

Ytd nite have a very good n sound sleep after talking to my dear... I am so recharge now(hehehe!!!) dun envy me oki ppl, u all can also have it when u all go for sth u like or love... Love is contagious n ever kindle in life... It spreads like wild fire n bring Hope n Blessing!!! Now we suppose to do GP but our class end up bloggong again as usual!!! Hahaha!!! Later will be going to church for Prayer meeting n den can meet up my dear!!! Yap Ppl lets get ready for another round of battle but this time is a soft battle as we are fighting for LoVe!!! Lets get LoV3!!!

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

Lets spread love ard!!!

Hahaha!!! I'm back to blog again... A bit tired though but am happy as later can talk to my dear liao!!! Now am gald tt she is oki liao... Xiao Yun I will forever Love u till the end of times n we will nva part each other again... Love U forever... Miss U sia... Hope u will be happy with me!!! Recieve a msg from her tt she will love me forever!!! So happy!!!(blushing now) Love is everything in this life, when u r being loved, it just feel great... Love is a potion n yet a poison as once u r addicted, u r just continuing indulge urself in it unless u withdraw from it... Hei ppl, Lets spread our love ard to touch ppl's lives like nva b4... When we show our care n concern for one another, everyone benefit... So we should do it, even dough some ppl r not worth we should stil spread love ard... Remember to love ur neighbour as urself, if possible love ur enemy too (even dough it is hard!!!)... We should love n be loved...

Xiao Yun I love u 4eva... Miss U!!! Muackz Muackz Muackz!!!

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HaPpY DaY!!!

Now I am in the library blogging, So happy for today at least my dear is now not sad le... Tonite my dear is going to tell me some good news... Looking forward to nite falls... N also Looking forward for Friday... I duncare sia whether this Friday after the National Day Celebration got extra lecture or not, I'm definitely not going cuz me wanna go out with my dear, xiao yun... Today is a bit tired cuz ytd dun really sleep well cuz I'm worried abt my dear ytd nite... But luckily it is oki liao so now I hope all thing proceed well properly... Hope our relationship will last 4eva... Love n Miss ya 4eva... Muackz Muackz Muackz!!!

Today was a bit tired n crappy, manage to skip econ tutorial, Hope Mr naresh can't be bother with me neither make any complain lor... Really hope school can end now at least cuz everyday come to school is so taxing n tedious thing to do now... Since Mid year exam is over, I have been going through alot of down times but manage to get over with it... The best part is tt recently I receive a gift from Heaven, An angel have come into my life n bring Sparks into my life n injected Hope in my life... So happy to have this "Angel"...

Later I will be studying very hard for econ after school... Have to start doing my work liao or else will kena kill by Mr Naresh... I really dun wan to attend his lesson so bored n tedious n stressed... But nvm just need to plough through a few more weeks den no need to see his face liao... Now looking forward to CLA lesson after the break... Hope Mr Liang will entertain us again... Will continue to blog later... How I hope A lvl will be gone soon n I can do well in it so tt dun need to redo n think abt it anymore or get to stessed up... I think I need a break soon... going nutz n cranky liao... Luckily going to have a five days break soon... Hope tt there wun be so much HW to complete over the long weekend...

Monday, August 02, 2004

A Super Duper Crappy Day

Today the whole world is going Mad sia!!! Today econ lecture was so funny sia as usual Ms wong n her lame stuff make us burst into laughter like mad... She was scolding sone with all the lame n crudee stuff indirectly sia... Her english seems to improve but her slang Suckz!!! She was also very means to ppl lor n kept targeting sone in the lecture hall... Later we had GP lesson, everyone was kinda moody during Gp lesson... Dun know the reason behind it... ( can't be bother to find out too cuz me was a bit tired in Gp lesson ) Maths lesson is even more sianz, I have to do my econ tutorial den as the next period is econ tutorial n I dun feel like doing it but have to do it anyway... (sob sob) Econ tutorial is so sucky n I really dun like to be there sia but today Mr Naresh nva give me any problem...

The most exciting part of monday is the 3 str8 period of geog lesson... Today Mr Chen was entertained by our class with our Class jokes... ( Mrs inselberg aka Bornhardt aka Penguin ) He was so entertain by it n he laugh non-stop... First time we see him laugh until like tt... I was laughing until my stomach ache sia... Later we had PE lesson, today is our last session of volleyball... Even though it is boring but we had fun today as usual... Later I stay in school to study n try to finish my HW... Study until 8pm den I went home...

I miss my dear dun know wat happen sia, my dear seems to be very sad today... I feel so bad tt I can't be there to help out... Feel like slapping myself to live so far away... I love n miss my dear... Sob sob... Dear I hope u r oki n happy no matter wat... Miss u n Love u always... I hope I nva do anything wrong to make U feel sad n unhappy abt urself... Yong Yuan Ai Ni Xiao Yun!!!

Sunday, August 01, 2004

A tiring n yet happy day!!!

Today went out with my dear to watch the movie "flying daggers"... This show not really nice as compare to the "I robot" but I'm still happy to be able to go out together... I still remember early in the morning I travel all the way from one end of Singapore to the other end to meet up with my dear... Den after tt we go all the way back to Tampines to watch tt damn loser movie... After the movie we went to KFC to eat n study... I didn't bring anything to study lor den I have to stone there... Hahaha!!! Later I accompany dearie back home... Now me looking toward for fri n we can meet again...

Watch NDP preview!!!

Today wake up kinda late cuz no need to go school, neither do I wake up early to study cuz today a bit lazy to study... But today got sth special cuz I went to watch NDP preview!!! This year NDP is kinda different in the sense tt I feel so homely n so on for Singapore!!! Actually I wanna migrate to other countries but now I have second thought... Suddenly feel tt I shall stay in Singapore cuz there are so many friends here even though life here can be kinda stress n restricted... But I will say see how la, it depends on my future n my desires... This year the theme is abt 'Creativity and Dare in the New Age'... I think why Singapore can stand strong as a small country is really becuz of its ppl who united as one n maintains racial harmony n pratice alot of tolerance to each other n hence able to enjoy peace n stability...

At the NDP parade, see the SAF ppl, they look so cool n so proud of Singapore(maybe just act one dunknow hahaha!!!) But the marching contingents was power sia... Hope tt during my NS year can be part of it at least once... Guess wat the preview n actual day performance differences is? It is tt the preview the MP n PM n SM n the president is fake one so funny sia n lame... They use stimulators to fake the arrival of the "VIPs"... The whole parade was nice... I still love the Fireworks, it is so cool n rockz!!! Love the fireworks... I also love the performance sia it is so nice n the colours they use are very contrasting n colourful... I was sad as i dun have a chance to play with the inflatable ball tt is pass ard as they are pass too fast to the front... Sob Sob nva had a chance to play with it... Yet on the whole I rnjoy the whole parade... Now looking forward to the actual day show n see the whole parade at home...